For the most beautiful smile ever..!!

It had been an year,then..and what a year it had been..!!Broken your heart three times,'liked' almost every girl and well,...'Simran'.!!I was scared not of your love but of mine.!!Was I good enough??Had all that v had heard watching SRK together..was it all wrong??But in times of self-doubt,what gave me hope was the way u move your hand over my cheek whenever a tear dropped down,the way u told me,'Your superb.!!' I still can't thank you enough for that.!!You were one of the reasons,I studied.!!It was going to be our first day together..7th Feb 2010..and what a day it was.!!We talked endlessly on the phone but when I saw u I could say nothing at all.!!Deep down,I was kicking myself for not saying anything..but I couldn't.!! Then arrived the simile,engraved on the nature's hand..I held your hand in mine..for the first time.!!I still remember the surprised look u had.!!You couldn't stop staring me.!!Those were two people in their own world..the SRK world.!!I was the Raj..you were my Anjali.!!I can't forget the feeling it was,once my hand's skin touched yours.!! It had been one and a half month since 7 Feb..it was 31st March,2010.!!Boards were over but all the time..I was thinking,''How to tell you how I love u??' How to make you believe,I do??After all that I had done..none believed in me.!!I asked you something..u came out with a reply that crept through my flesh and heart..I was bleeding..so were you.!!But I still managed to hold my hand..and say,''I trust you.!!' I was scared of the trust,scared of breaking your heart..scared of breaking you cause somewhere it did break me,too.!!Breaking you still breaks me.!! Trust and love are two different things.!!I had got the Trust part,the Love part still secluded me.!!I did everything,I could.!!Asked your friends if u love me.!!Ask u indirectly,if u love me.!!I tried everything..and each time the reply was yes.!!I knew it was a yes.!!But the question stood..how can I ask you??An year of grief for u..how can I ask you?? As the was case with me,in those days..I broke down the shackles and did ask you.!!You asked me,if I would break your heart again.!!Wish I could tell you that I can't..I just can't.!!You looked me in the eye..did what none does..read them.!!You said..yes.!!It was 2 April,2010.!! Three years..I have been handling you.!!(iske peeche lolz aapnee aap lga lo.!!) Can I do it for a lifetime??